More headbands

I made these headbands for sisters...a 2 year old and a new baby...what do you think? This was today's sanity project.....yup it worked I'm still sane!! I will do matching flowers for each set.

Mommy needs timeout

Ok...so I am in serious need of some blog therapy today so here we go. We have entered a stinkin hard stage with our little twin tornadoes...today I have been thinking...this is my life???....seriously? They are into EVERYTHING!!!!!! I just am feeling very done today and we are nowhere near bedtime...it's only 10:00!!! AAAHHHHH!!!! Let me explain what I think has led to this little breakdown of mine.
Sunday morning went like this:
-Kirk is basically at meetings from 7 until 10:30....so I have the lucky job of getting everyone ready for church all by myself
-Boys are sick AGAIN so no church for them (originally I thought this would help Sunday morning go more smoothly...wrong again)
-While getting Taylor ready for church the tornadoes manage to open the cereal cupboard and dump 2 full boxes of cereal all over the kitchen and front room...but this shouldn't bother me because they were only getting a snack right? (they even got themselves little bowls out to put their contraband treats in)
-They also emptied the hamper (for the umpeenth time)
-Also they got into the laptop bag and had the cords everywhere.
So that was Sunday morning before ten.
Today John climbed up on the kitchen table to play with the laptop while Bennett fell off the kitchen chair...after they pulled the fireplace screen over on themselves and threw balls and Taylor's doll in the fireplace. AAAAHHHHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH!! I just feel very done. I get that they don't feel great and I get that they are only 19 months old and I get that they are boys and boys are different....but SERIOUSLY!?!?!?!?!? I don't want to hear how one day I will miss this. I don't want to hear how cute and funny this is. I don't want to hear how before I know it they will be old and gone and I will be so sad. I just don't want to hear any of that because right now it's just too hard. I guarentee I won't miss this stage just like I don't miss spending all but maybe 3 hours of my day feeding babies.
This morning I felt it was just tooo much for me to handle. So I closed them in their bedroom and I can hear them making all sorts of ruckus but I just can't deal with it right now so here I type and there they cry.
I know that I have more things to be grateful for then I can even mention, I have a great husband who is home every night, we are all healthy for the most part, we are doing ok financially, we just spent a great day yesterday together on a hike, and on and on and really we are surviving just fine but today I just feel spent!!!! SERIOUSLY!!! I get that everyone has their days and things could be so much worse but I just want to be grumpy and ornery and complain for a second....I just need to get it out and then dig in again. I will be fine....life is good...life is good...life is good.
Last night while putting Taylor to bed I said, "Have good sleeps" and she said, "Mommy sometimes when I am sleeping, my baby wakes me up because she is crying for me so I might not sleep." And I said, "Taylor would you like me to take care of your baby tonight so you can sleep?" "Yes Mommy." I said, "being a mommy is sometimes hard isn't it." Taylor said, "it sure is." Holy cow it is! Well I'm going to go have a good cry and then I will be ready to go again and it is probably time to let the tornoadoes loose.

Some Pictures

I realized that we haven't posted kiddo pics for a while so here you go!

This is on our hike (who am I kidding it didn't last long enough to be considered a hike...it was really a walk) in the foothills last week.

Mr. John loves his hat.

This is Bennett. We took the kids to the temple the other day to get some spring pictures of them with the tulips.

This is Taylor with her latest headband...my favorite so far!
And Taylor at her final dance performance. She did a great job!!

I'm on a ROLL!!

So I found this great pattern for headbands last night and had to try it out...here it is!!!

You'll have to excuse my model...she is currently napping and I wasn't about to wake her up...so thank you Miss Cabbage Patch. This at least gives you an idea of how it might look on Taylor Baylor!

Oh and the greatest part is the flower is removable!! So I can make flowers in all sorts of different shapes and colors and just attach with the button in the middle to coordinate with the color of the day!! YAYAY!! Next I'm going to try a skinnier headband I think but still go with the button flower idea...whatdyathink?

My latest creation

So I finally finished this crochet bag I've been working on forever! I'm so happy it's done I had to share! It took me so long though, I don't really want to use it for the chance I might ruin it or something...go figure. I'm sure I'll get over that quick! Yay it's done!!!

The Mother Load

I always thought I had been pretty appreciative of the job Carin did staying home with our kids. That is until she left to Virginia last week. I have had the kids alone for a couple of days in a row but never this long. She's been gone for 5 days. I have really enjoyed being home with the kids and spending more time with them than usual. They are good kids. Good kids or not, this is not a job for the half-hearted mother. This job is all-in.

I usually leave for work when the kids are getting dressed for the day. From that point until dinner, I thought I knew what went on here. This job doesn't end. I have been more involved since the boys were born just because with twins, it's a two-person job. I have to admit that I was reluctant to lose our MVP for 5 days and I was quite nervous about it. I learned a few things while Carin was gone.

1. Paper plates make for less dishes but more garbage.

2. McDonald's Drive thru and Totino's party pizzas are life savers

3. Don't say the word "outside" unless you plan on putting on 6 little shoes right now!

4. Grandmas are a big help.

5. Rags begin to stink without a daily load of laundry. I tried to microwave them. I figured it would get rid of the smell. It did.

6. New dishrags aren't that expensive.

7. If it's a rainy, dark morning and the babies wake up early, tuck them back in and give them a binky and they'll sleep for another hour.

8. Rainy days equal long days

9. Humming while Plugging my ears under the shower behind 2 closed doors is the only way to find harmonic solace from the crying. Even daddy needs a time out sometimes.

10. King beds are no good if there is no queen. Thank you night time sleep aid.

Success #1-I did master the 4 hour afternoon nap. Chalk that up to more crying than usual and a noteably quieter house because daddy napped too.

Success #2-No one was critically injured or taken to the hospital

Success #3-I taught Taylor how to play baseball

Yes, now I understand better why my wife's hair is more often than not pulled back in a hasty pony tail. When you shut the bathroom door crying and fits ensue. I now am beginning to understand how much work it takes to run this place, buy groceries, plan meals, fix meals (on time), have a calling in the church, do laundry, get the kids outside, read to them, clean the house and still have enough energy to want to even think about going to the gym or doing yardwork-let alone taking care of a clueless husband.

Don't get me wrong, I enjoyed being with the kids. I missed Carin horribly though. I will try to be more helpful when I can and try to be more aware as a husband. It's been an eye-opening experience for this husband. I am married to a marvel of a woman that balances this crazy life without one word of complaint and 100 times better than I. The calling of mother truly is the greatest and most challenging.

Taylor crawled in bed with me this morning and whispered, "Daddy, when is Mommy coming home?" I said, "She'll be here tomorrow morning when you wake up!" The Taylor said, "Let's go get the boys up, I want today to go by quickly."

I love you Carin and I can't wait for you to get home! Neither can the kids.